Emotional Reactivity

When I am feeling annoyed with someone or feeling sorry for me I am most likely engaging in righteousness and being emotionally reactive.  There are times were I feel let down and lonely and it is easy at those time to slip into blaming others for my thoughts and feelings. 

Feelings often are subjective and created and felt by my ego.  Ego reacts to the world and through it I am given signals about how  I should feel and react.  Emotional reactivity, or righteousness, takes me out of the flow of life and away from being in the moment.  As this happens I find myself angry, hurt, or upset, and often want to put these feelings on someone else.  Others are not doing things to upset me, they are just living their lives.  My reaction to this belongs to me.  I am in charge of how I respond, not of what others do.  If I get caught up in judging the responsibility is mine, not theirs.

It is easy to do.  I feel hurt and immediately want to push the feeling away so I project it onto someone else.  If I stop my reactions, slow down, remember to breathe, I can go within and examine what I am feeling and why.  I begin to realize that it is easier to be angry and blame others for my feelings rather than to examine and accept them as belonging to me.  When I take this responsibility my being upset resolves itself.  In the moment of self awareness there is clarity into and understanding of myself.  As this happens ego lets go of its hold on my reactions and I am able to move into proactive awareness.

A blossom of self awareness opens and release ego's hold as I take full  responsibility for me.  Getting lost in my emotional reactivity is not where I want to be.  This is not in my or others best interest.  Ego always wants to be right and that is harmful to everyone.  Releasing ego lets me move into the place of being the objective observer.  As I let go of my emotional reactivity and righteousness I move into being centered in myself.  This is a place of balance, living in the moment, and mindfulness.

This allows me to tap into my full potential as a human being.  Emotional reactivity can be a frequent happening in life.  Realizing this, learning from it, and not staying stuck I am given the opportunity to return to and live from my center.  There are no mistakes in life only lessons.